Gah. The fact i keep skipping over my blogging and i hate it. So i apologize for my sporadic entries. Well, the recent days have been kind of shifty, really all i've been doing is playing guitar and doing homework. But mainly guitar, which is a problem. I need to raise my Bio grade really badly because i can't afford dropping the class. We've had 2 of our 5 exams in the class, and the first two are ridiculously hard so i believe i can make my come back. I hope.
I'm not really sure what to say.
Lately i've been thinking alot about Melissa. I think i really like her which is bad because she hates me. She has a boyfriend too, so i' m thinking it's probably just because i can't have her that i feel that way. I don't know. She actually threatened to change her number if i texted her again. So i took her number out of my phone so i wouldn't be tempted. She deleted me from Myspace so i really don't have a way to reach her. Maybe it's for the best?
Besides that i've been playing Dance Dance Revolution and eating Ramen noodles. I lost a Guitar Hero Tournament over the weekend which helped drain my bank account even more. I need to think of an easy way to make some money without selling drugs.
Or getting a job. And i'm running out of things to sell on Ebay haha. GR! I better get my Xbox 360 today in the mail....
It red-ringed 2/3 weeks ago and i sent it to the company to get fixed. It says on there site as of like, Thursday that it was being shipped back to me. Guitar Hero 4 comes out this Sunday so i can only hope and pray that it arrives here. I'm overly excited for that game. It's going to be so pro!
Sunday morning Me and Mauricio are running out to Gamestop where i have my reservation and were going to get the game come back to my house and with the help of Conway and Aaron were going to 5 star the game. IT's cool cause we get to customize our guitars and persons which will be PROOOO.
When i finally make my own song on that game.. It's going to be so in depth. I have it all planned out. You know why?
I'm a loser and i know it. But, i'm okay with that. Haha. November 15th is the date of the Guitar Hero tournament i'm going to next so i need to practice. the winner gets 1000$ cash and 2nd gets 250$.
Even if i can nail second i'll be pretty happy. Speaking of Nail, i think i'm having Vikkie hang out with me within the next two weeks which should be pretty cool.
Ugh.
My life is boring. I was hoping it was near the end of class by now, but it's only 23 minutes in.
Peace out!
End Log
-Ryan
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I Wish The Tide Would Wash Away The City
Ugh,
I'm deciding that instead of just blandly listing what i did today, i'm going to switch it up. I don't really have anything exciting that happens in my life, so i'm going to see where this takes me. I've missed class two days in a row now, and that's really bad for me. Sometimes i wake up and just think of quitting. Is that normal for a kid my age? I hope so. But, i'm trying really hard to bring back up my Biology grade, and i really hope that it works out. I also realized i'm not going to sleep with Harley. I was going to, but you know what. I don't fucking need it. It's complteley useless and it serves no purpose. I don't care what she thinks or what anyone else thinks.
Though there is this girl next door named B who is WAYYY hot.
Garret Fucking Ortino. Is the greatest man alive. I have so much respect for him, and he is by far my oldest and greatest friend. (Don't worry Hays, your tied with Zacky and T). That man has the persistence of a Wolverine in a bear trap. He's joining a job drilling oil 7 days a week, and then 7 days off. Making 70G a year. He's doing it just so that he can come see me all the time, and not have to be neck up in expenses. I don't understand where he gets his motivation. The kid's amazing. I really wish his Dad didn't kick him out so he could come stay with me :D. For the records. I love Garret Ortino. The kid is my best friend and always will be. Since like, effing kindergarten the kid has been there. Right on Garret. No one of my other friends would pay for me to fly up to Colorado to stay with them. I love you dude. Your my boy.
I miss my friends they were awesome. Though, i'm glad some of them left because they made me feel slightly worse about my life. So i guess in a sense, they weren't really my friends were they? My Algebra Final is on Friday, and i hope i'm ready. I think i'm prepared... I went to the review on Saturday with Mauricio. That kid has become one of my new best friends. He's over here all the time and he's way nice. I'm really happy that he's an undercover nerd like i am. WE played Super Smash Bros Melee today for like an hour and a half straight. Were such losers. Tuesdays and Thursdays him and Billy come over. Though his mom has been getting pissed he's out all the time so he has to go home sometimes.
I had this weird fuckin' dream last night. I was best friends with Helen Keller. We like hungout and Zack was like, dude, why are you friends with her if she's blind and mute. and i was like, Eff you Zack. Your a dick. Then in a subdream after that, i was in a video game i guess. becauae Zombies kept coming into this upstairs area and i kept "messing up" in the game, so i would jump out the window to die, to restart. like i would straight up commit suicide. But one time i jumped headfirst and i guess i landed on my feet. my friend was like, you sure it's safe, and i was like yeah.
So he jumped but landed on a weird angle, so he didn't die and his body layed there twitching and it was really really fucked up to watch. He looked like he was in immense pain, and he couldn't move. He could only twitch.
I haven't written in my book in a while. I need to do that soon. But i will wait till this weekend because i have some major tests and stuff going down.
But.
It's bed time.
Tonight's CD alignment is.
1) I AM Ghost - Those We leave Behind.
2)Story Of The Year - Page Avenue
3) The Rasmus - Dead Letters
4) Bullet For My Valentine - The Poison
5) 30 Seconds To Mars - Beautiful Lie.
I hope i get some killer dreams.
During Religion tomorrow, after my quiz, i'm going to IM Tarah and Angie. Both are hot. Maybe i can mack it :D.
Ugh.
My life is depressing and is just chase after chase.
P.S. I learned The Most Beautiful Girl In The Room by Flight Of The Conchords on the guitar.
"When your on the street, depending on the street, your definitely in the top 3"
End Log
-Ryan
I'm deciding that instead of just blandly listing what i did today, i'm going to switch it up. I don't really have anything exciting that happens in my life, so i'm going to see where this takes me. I've missed class two days in a row now, and that's really bad for me. Sometimes i wake up and just think of quitting. Is that normal for a kid my age? I hope so. But, i'm trying really hard to bring back up my Biology grade, and i really hope that it works out. I also realized i'm not going to sleep with Harley. I was going to, but you know what. I don't fucking need it. It's complteley useless and it serves no purpose. I don't care what she thinks or what anyone else thinks.
Though there is this girl next door named B who is WAYYY hot.
Garret Fucking Ortino. Is the greatest man alive. I have so much respect for him, and he is by far my oldest and greatest friend. (Don't worry Hays, your tied with Zacky and T). That man has the persistence of a Wolverine in a bear trap. He's joining a job drilling oil 7 days a week, and then 7 days off. Making 70G a year. He's doing it just so that he can come see me all the time, and not have to be neck up in expenses. I don't understand where he gets his motivation. The kid's amazing. I really wish his Dad didn't kick him out so he could come stay with me :D. For the records. I love Garret Ortino. The kid is my best friend and always will be. Since like, effing kindergarten the kid has been there. Right on Garret. No one of my other friends would pay for me to fly up to Colorado to stay with them. I love you dude. Your my boy.
I miss my friends they were awesome. Though, i'm glad some of them left because they made me feel slightly worse about my life. So i guess in a sense, they weren't really my friends were they? My Algebra Final is on Friday, and i hope i'm ready. I think i'm prepared... I went to the review on Saturday with Mauricio. That kid has become one of my new best friends. He's over here all the time and he's way nice. I'm really happy that he's an undercover nerd like i am. WE played Super Smash Bros Melee today for like an hour and a half straight. Were such losers. Tuesdays and Thursdays him and Billy come over. Though his mom has been getting pissed he's out all the time so he has to go home sometimes.
I had this weird fuckin' dream last night. I was best friends with Helen Keller. We like hungout and Zack was like, dude, why are you friends with her if she's blind and mute. and i was like, Eff you Zack. Your a dick. Then in a subdream after that, i was in a video game i guess. becauae Zombies kept coming into this upstairs area and i kept "messing up" in the game, so i would jump out the window to die, to restart. like i would straight up commit suicide. But one time i jumped headfirst and i guess i landed on my feet. my friend was like, you sure it's safe, and i was like yeah.
So he jumped but landed on a weird angle, so he didn't die and his body layed there twitching and it was really really fucked up to watch. He looked like he was in immense pain, and he couldn't move. He could only twitch.
I haven't written in my book in a while. I need to do that soon. But i will wait till this weekend because i have some major tests and stuff going down.
But.
It's bed time.
Tonight's CD alignment is.
1) I AM Ghost - Those We leave Behind.
2)Story Of The Year - Page Avenue
3) The Rasmus - Dead Letters
4) Bullet For My Valentine - The Poison
5) 30 Seconds To Mars - Beautiful Lie.
I hope i get some killer dreams.
During Religion tomorrow, after my quiz, i'm going to IM Tarah and Angie. Both are hot. Maybe i can mack it :D.
Ugh.
My life is depressing and is just chase after chase.
P.S. I learned The Most Beautiful Girl In The Room by Flight Of The Conchords on the guitar.
"When your on the street, depending on the street, your definitely in the top 3"
End Log
-Ryan
Monday, October 6, 2008
Don't Wake Up
Ugh, GOd damn.
46% in biology is not very good. Infact that's downright shit.
Luckily to bring up my spirits i woke up around 9:57am which is an hour and 57 minutes past my first class...
Then TJ called me and i talked to him for a little bit which made me happy. I rarely EVER talk to him anymore. and whenever he DOES call its on his way to pick up anthropology papers. Haha. Then i woke up took a shower and enjoyed readin my Bio book for 1.30 min out loud with headphones on. I looked at the clock and somehow it was already 4:30ish, so i watched some TV with the guys and then decided i wanted to eat Subway. So i went over to Subway and walked back home.
Then i watched alot of Cartoon Network.
Thats really my day. I'm sorry i bored anyone/everyone that read this(Hays). Uhhh.
Then i learned "That Green Gentleman" from Panic At The Disco. Then Greg was over with some pals like Peel and JR.
Now i'm in my room, and calling it a night. Watching Robot Chicken.
End Log
-Ryan
46% in biology is not very good. Infact that's downright shit.
Luckily to bring up my spirits i woke up around 9:57am which is an hour and 57 minutes past my first class...
Then TJ called me and i talked to him for a little bit which made me happy. I rarely EVER talk to him anymore. and whenever he DOES call its on his way to pick up anthropology papers. Haha. Then i woke up took a shower and enjoyed readin my Bio book for 1.30 min out loud with headphones on. I looked at the clock and somehow it was already 4:30ish, so i watched some TV with the guys and then decided i wanted to eat Subway. So i went over to Subway and walked back home.
Then i watched alot of Cartoon Network.
Thats really my day. I'm sorry i bored anyone/everyone that read this(Hays). Uhhh.
Then i learned "That Green Gentleman" from Panic At The Disco. Then Greg was over with some pals like Peel and JR.
Now i'm in my room, and calling it a night. Watching Robot Chicken.
End Log
-Ryan
Friday, October 3, 2008
Well Now, So You Think Your Ready?
The past few dys have been somewhat of a blur, so i'm going to try and recall what has happenned. It started with yesterday, where i decided to go to my College Algebra Lab class. I had missed alot of my lab class, so i decided to see what the damage was. Mauricio and Billy waited for me out front of my class as i went in and talked to my Professor. I asked her "Hey, i don't come alot, what does that do for my grade in here?"
"Well, how often do you come?"
"Like, 50% of the time probably"
"Oh, well class participation is about 5% of the grade. SO i'll deduct around 2.5% from your grade."
"Shit that".
So i just left, i don't think im going to go back, hahah.
I went with Mauricio and Billy back to the room and we played some Wii Fit and Guitar Hero. I've been working out with Wii Fit alot, getting some crazy abs. But JErry came over too which was cool. Though when i had to take my tylenol he gave me "V8" to swallow my pills, and the second i swallowed them, i was like. Dammit Jerry. He slipped me alcohol, but whatever. Haha. the fact it was a V8 container made me slightly tricked.
Following that, the day rolled by, and i called 99X, because the tickets for the Xmas ball were going on sale tomorrow and i needed the 411. Little did i know it was sexy thursdays, so i had to tell them what i thought was sexy.
"Uh, short girls, with a big rack"
"Oh yeah? Like real or fake?"
"Real definitely"
"You like them at cock level?"
That question kinda weirded me out, due to the fat i was going to be on the radio. But i was already headfirst in, so i couldn't back out.
"Hellz yeah"
Then she told me that we could meet up at the concert and yell for boobies. Haha.
Later on that night, around 12:15 i went online and i ordered my 99Xmas ball tickets and i was REALLY excited about that.
Because they had been on sale for literally 15 minutes. I was up until about 2am, and i should NOT have eaten food before sleeping, because i awoke this morning with a KILLER stomach ache. But i woke up this morning and grabbed my comp books so i could read the readings before i had my 9:30am classes. I was all prepped up, so i set off for my comp 1 class.
I arrived on time which was nice, and i found out that i got a 83% on my essay. SHAZAM!
Now i have to write my next report on "Remembering". I decided i'm going to write about when i played Two Zero Two infront of the sschool for Ainsley :D.
That was the 2nd best day of my life, if not the first.
It's tied very closely to the day me and Lauren went to the Papa Roach concert and they played our song as we held each other. I know she betrayed me, but it was morely the feeling of the moment than anything else. I actually whispered in her ear that "If i died right now, i would be happy".
Now i'm in College Algebra Lecture class. So, I better get back to... not blogging.
Ugh,
End Log
-Ryan
"Well, how often do you come?"
"Like, 50% of the time probably"
"Oh, well class participation is about 5% of the grade. SO i'll deduct around 2.5% from your grade."
"Shit that".
So i just left, i don't think im going to go back, hahah.
I went with Mauricio and Billy back to the room and we played some Wii Fit and Guitar Hero. I've been working out with Wii Fit alot, getting some crazy abs. But JErry came over too which was cool. Though when i had to take my tylenol he gave me "V8" to swallow my pills, and the second i swallowed them, i was like. Dammit Jerry. He slipped me alcohol, but whatever. Haha. the fact it was a V8 container made me slightly tricked.
Following that, the day rolled by, and i called 99X, because the tickets for the Xmas ball were going on sale tomorrow and i needed the 411. Little did i know it was sexy thursdays, so i had to tell them what i thought was sexy.
"Uh, short girls, with a big rack"
"Oh yeah? Like real or fake?"
"Real definitely"
"You like them at cock level?"
That question kinda weirded me out, due to the fat i was going to be on the radio. But i was already headfirst in, so i couldn't back out.
"Hellz yeah"
Then she told me that we could meet up at the concert and yell for boobies. Haha.
Later on that night, around 12:15 i went online and i ordered my 99Xmas ball tickets and i was REALLY excited about that.
Because they had been on sale for literally 15 minutes. I was up until about 2am, and i should NOT have eaten food before sleeping, because i awoke this morning with a KILLER stomach ache. But i woke up this morning and grabbed my comp books so i could read the readings before i had my 9:30am classes. I was all prepped up, so i set off for my comp 1 class.
I arrived on time which was nice, and i found out that i got a 83% on my essay. SHAZAM!
Now i have to write my next report on "Remembering". I decided i'm going to write about when i played Two Zero Two infront of the sschool for Ainsley :D.
That was the 2nd best day of my life, if not the first.
It's tied very closely to the day me and Lauren went to the Papa Roach concert and they played our song as we held each other. I know she betrayed me, but it was morely the feeling of the moment than anything else. I actually whispered in her ear that "If i died right now, i would be happy".
Now i'm in College Algebra Lecture class. So, I better get back to... not blogging.
Ugh,
End Log
-Ryan
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Shoot Pause Pose Reload.
I need to take a breather just for a while. Just get this out of my head. The memories keep racing and these cuts keep on bleeding as i turn away from you.
The blood has been shed and these scars just won't heal. What have I done to deserve this? Slowly fading, ashes by ashes slowly dissapating. What have i done to deserve this? Step by Step. Failure By Failure. Win by Win. Loss by Loss. Spiraling into this decaying soul.
I'm sure we will overcome this. I'm sure we can overcome this.
I need to take a breather just for a while. Just get this out of my head. The memories keep racing and these cuts keep on bleeding as i turn away from you.
I'm sure that one day we can look back and smile. But i can tell you it's not coming soon. But the blood pressure's rising and knuckles are whitening and i dont know what to do. Step by Step. Failure By Failure. Win by Win. Loss by Loss. Spiraling into this decaying soul.
I need to take a breather just for a while. Just get this out of my head. The memories keep racing and these cuts keep on bleeding as i turn away from you.
Spiraling into this decaying soul.
Spiraling into this Decaying soul.
The blood has been shed and these scars just won't heal. What have I done to deserve this? Slowly fading, ashes by ashes slowly dissapating. What have i done to deserve this? Step by Step. Failure By Failure. Win by Win. Loss by Loss. Spiraling into this decaying soul.
I'm sure we will overcome this. I'm sure we can overcome this.
I need to take a breather just for a while. Just get this out of my head. The memories keep racing and these cuts keep on bleeding as i turn away from you.
I'm sure that one day we can look back and smile. But i can tell you it's not coming soon. But the blood pressure's rising and knuckles are whitening and i dont know what to do. Step by Step. Failure By Failure. Win by Win. Loss by Loss. Spiraling into this decaying soul.
I need to take a breather just for a while. Just get this out of my head. The memories keep racing and these cuts keep on bleeding as i turn away from you.
Spiraling into this decaying soul.
Spiraling into this Decaying soul.
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