I feel almost ashamed.

I feel horrid that i never went through with this. I kind of miss the online blogging and telling all my friends what i'm doing with my life. Hays, you're a good friend. I'm glad i get to see you tomorrow. Lately i've been awfully busy.. working 5 days a week, teaching guitar lessons, taking school classes for summer. I feel like everything is just killing time until August 6th, which is the day me and my best friends go to Ybor City for the night. I'm SO excited :). It'll be my third time going, and this time Zack and Mike Lewis are going. I haven't caught up my blog.. ever. I dont know if it's worth it at this point.

Zachary David Cook (Zacky C). You are probably the most loyal friend i have. I know if anything ever goes wrong in my life, or your life, we always have each other to turn to. You're the best man! I'm so happy when you come to town i get o see you. I'm sorry i get semi obsessive about stuff, but you can deal with it and you accept me. Thanks man. If it wasn't for you... i wouldn't play guitar. I wouldn't listen to rock music. I wouldn't have one of the best friends someone could ask for. You're a great person to just talk to. and get along with. Thanks, i'm glad i can count on you for all my life.

Mike Lewis! You're one of my recently new best friends, but i'm glad you're in the gang. We play pokemon together, and other things of the sort. You let me live on your couch for a month+ and i think thats fucking amazing. I'm glad that our friendship has grown. There are points where i'm scared you dont like me again... but everything seems to work out.

Stephen Giuffrida. Thanks Viper. You're a really great friend. you're always down to earth about life.. and i know i can talk to you about stuff. That night we went out and smoke cigars and talked about every best friend we've ever had was one of the most life changing nights i have ever had. i'm sorry if i've ever hurt your feelings before.. and next year is going to be great when we live together. SwampNigga crew!

Mauricio. Dude.... maurice. You're a great guy. I dont know what it is about you, but something about you is just fun. You're a genuinely good guy and youre a great boyfriend. Christine totally digs you. Even though you may only hangout with me for like, 15 minutes before you go see her.. you still spend that 15 minutes with me.. and i like that. You're a good wingman. Ybor is going to be fun man..

Jose Fig! Jose... you're also a new addition to my best friends circle. you're a great guy. i'm happy to have you in my friendship circle. I enjoy your sandwiches.. and you're down to earth to talk to. LOS LINKS!

Timothy TJ Shaffer. Dude.. i miss you. I haven't heard from you in god knows how long. When you came down here during my freshman year you told me "Ryan, i dont see us being friends when we're adults" and thats probably the dickist thing one of my best friends could ever say to me. But... i know you're being honest. So i'm not offended. T, i'm glad you were there for me through my life and most necessary checkpoints in becoming who i am today.

Garret Ortino. You're literally my boy. I don't see you as often or talk as often as we used to.. and i'm sure you want to hangout.. but i understand that your girlfriend, lack of phone, poker, and probably a 4th thing are keeping you pretty occupied. I'm glad to say i've known you for as long as i can remember... even though my memory is fucked to shit so i dont remember much. I look back and read alot of these past blogs and i dont remember them. I actually liked my Dad in these...

Man.. things do change. I mean... i used to hate people who drink. Now i am one. and i fucking party all the time. I'm banging my ex.. who is still dating my friend. I'm going to full sail in april... after spring semester. Musical Performance is my major and i really hope it works out. If not i dont have a backup plan. I'm at a loss for words.

I just want to dance the night away in ybor. i want to throw on my trench coat, let my bare chest show off to the world, and i want to rock that goth club hard as can be. sigh

I wish things were easy in life. I'm sick of working nonstop. If i had some goddamned worth ethic i could fucking afford things. but i hate working. I'd rather do nothing all day.

Oh! fun fact for anyone who reads this. I now professionally play Super Smash Bros Brawl and go around Florida playing by the Gamer name "Mink". It makes me feel cool. I play as Jigglypuff, Zero suit Samus and Peach.

Well. I hope one day someone reads this. Maybe ill start writing again. i need to write in my journal. that ones has been too long. i dont have the self motivation to do alot with my life, including sleep. i stumbled across my old blog via google-ing myself.. and it led me to this. i told myself i would sleep at 2am. Man, did things change. Well....
Goodnight everyone, Hays, Me. I hope one day someone google's themselves and finds there name in the above format... so they know they are my friends.


--Ryan mink Kane